My First college orientation experience

Hello there!

I am back again with another update.
As you can tell from the title, yes, I went to my first ever college orientation.

All I can say is, it was awesome. The students who helped out during the orientation days were really friendly and I met several new friends too.

We sort of had some workshops which I think is quite fun because I get to talk with some new people, which I don't normally do. I'm stepping out of my comfort zone.

I only get to interact with more people during the second day of orientation cause we were put into groups and did some activities. It was fun, that's all I can say.

I just can't wait for my class to start next week. I'm finally able to go to a college after my horrible experience in my previous ones. I'm going to make so much memories and enjoy college life.

So that's it for my short update. There'll be plenty more to come and I will try my best to include pictures this time. Hehe :>



I'll update soon.

xx

Late night talks

Oh hey,
I'm back again for another casual update.

So a few things has been going on lately and I'm going recap of what has been going on recently.

Firstly, I am finally going to college. A proper one that is. The orientation date is set to be on the 13th and the 14th of April. Yeap, the orientation is two days and I'm excited, but slightly nervous. There is going to be a lot new people and I'm not good around new peoples cause I get this anxiety attack. But I'm going to step out of my comfort zone and deal with it. besides, they're just people, they shouldn't intimidate me. I hope so.. hehe.

My class officially starts on the 20th, so I'm going to be real busy for the rest of the year.

The next thing is something that I've been wanting share with you guys. It happened pretty recently.
So about last month, Viven asked me if I wanted to try this coaching session where she is the coach and I'm the client. It was for one of her assignments for her Uni so I agreed to it because I wanted to try it out and besides, I could help her with her work.

The coaching session consists of 4-5 sessions. It's mainly about discovering your goals in life. At first I couldn't really think of any cause I wasn't so proud and confident with myself. But throughout the sessions. I sort of like, re-discovered myself, What I am worth. I felt this positive vibe. I don't hate myself that much anymore. All those positive speech she told me just somehow brought me out of the negative thoughts. It just puts me in place. I'm not saying that I no longer think of negative things. I still do but I try to think positive all the time.

So after the last session which was about a week ago (No pls don't sing that song, if you know what I'm referring to), I've been pushing myself to do more productive things like workout more and practice my guitar and stopped being so lazy.

Overall, I can say that the coaching session worked pretty well. At the end of the day, she and I both got benefits for it. And I'm glad I agreed to it in the first place.


So that's it. That's all I got to say in the somehow long post.

I hope you all have awonderful day and I'll update next time.

xx

Just some little thoughts.

I know that I don't spend a lot of time updating my blog. I only update once in a blue moon

But right now, I have this thought that has been bugging me for the past hours.

Loneliness and friends.

Everyone has felt this emotion at some point of their lives. Even the ones who are surrounded my friends.
To me, loneliness isn't just about being depressed or down when you're alone. You can also feel lonely when you have friends or family around you. It's that feeling of isolation, you know? Like how your friends, they make you feel isolated because you feel like they don't understand you, like nobody else can.

I personally have been through this, being alone, feeling so left out. It almost made me break-down and cry. That's how terrible it felt.

But over the years, I've gotten used to it. In fact, I spent nearly all the time being alone. And I liked it. I enjoyed being alone in my personal space. Sometimes I do get asked out by my friends just to catch up or just normal outing.

I keep telling myself that it's alright to be alone, It really is, It's okay if you got no friends. Just know that, yourself, that's all you need, You don't need a lot of friends to be happy. You just gotta keep a couple of close ones around. I personally have only got 2 close friends and the rest are just acquaintances. And I'm okay with that. Not everyone you're friends are your true friends.

If you got a group of friends that made plans without you, you sort of already know where you stand. So don't waste so much time trying to fit in with them anymore, Focus on yourself. You can do so much more without them.

So just enjoy yourself, don't make it a big deal when your friends had fun without you. Friends, they come and go. Just remember, if you got a couple of close friends around, cherish them.


That's all I have to say for now
This is just a late night thought I had, so why not make it into a blog post.


I'll update soon

xx

sick days, go away

I just recovered from a cold a few weeks ago. Now the cold made a comeback and I'm sick again. I feel miserable right now. I didn't have appetite to eat, I constantly feel like sleeping, even though I just woke up from that extra 3 hours of nap I took. My head feels light and my right side of my nose is blocked.

The weather must have messed me up big time cause I feel like shit right now. And yes, I'm whining like a baby because I feel weak like I just want to sleep all day :s

Last night, I slept around 12:40 am and woke up around 8:10 am this morning. Did some stuff, turned on my laptop for a while and around 9 am, I went back to sleep and then woke up at 12:30 pm. It was already lunch hour but I didn't have to appetite so I just made myself some hot chocolate and 2 slices of peanut butter toast.

Right now I still feel like crap and I'm a little bit irritated cause my laptop's being whack as fuck. I don't know why it's being super lagging these days. I feel like I got so much shit to complain about but I'm not gonna do it. I don't want to make my day even more miserable than it already is.

And.. I have a coaching session later on with Viven so I wanna prepare myself. So I'm gonna go lie down for a while and then get ready for later.

This is a super short post of me complaining about everything..
I know..I'm sorry I just had to let it all out to ease my frustrations..
Thank goodness I have this blog


I'll update soon

xx

Mini March Haul 2015

Hello everyone!

I am back again with another blog post ^_^
So Chinese New Year has recently ended and I hope that everyone who celebrated, had a wonderful time with family and friends. I had such an amazing CNY this year.


Okay, I'm gonna jump straight to the haul now. I haven't posted any hauls since forever.

I went to Watsons yesterday and spent quite a long time there cause they were having a sale.

Firstly, I picked up this Maybelline Color Sensational Lipstick in the shade 645 Red Revival. It was only RM 17.94 cause they were having this special weekend sale. 

I also picked up this L'oreal Paris Color Riche Lipstick in the shade Pearly Viva Red. This shade is lighter than the Maybelline one. At first I thought they were the same. This was also on sale for RM 17.95

Next, I picked up this Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer in the shade Cool Medium 2. I heard a lot of good reviews on this concealer, that's why I picked this one and I also ran out of concealer. ^_^

My last make-up bit I bought was the Collection Does It All Waterproof Mascara. I also heard a lot of good reviews on this mascara. I can't wait to try this~

I got this Argan Oil Body Scrub by Watsons cause I wanted to try it.

Another skin product I got is this giant St. Ives Body Lotion. I've used this already and I smells amazing. You guys should try it,

And lastly, I got this Loreal Paris hair dye in the shade P66 Intense Spicy Red. I can't wait to see the results of this hair dye :D

And yeah, that sums up my entire purchase from Watsons. I can't wait to try out all the new make-up bits and also skin products. 

I hope you guys enjoyed reading this blog post even though it's just me showing off all the things I bought. hehe

I will try to update as often as I can from now on and I hope to improve my blogging skills along the way!

I hope you guys have an awesome day or night depending on which place you're from. Stay beautiful, stay gorgeous, stay healthy and stay healthy! I love you all!

xx

Messy mind.

Hello everyone,

I am back again with another blog-post. I've been procrastinating on updating this blog since forever. I don't know, it's like I want to update but I have no idea what to blog about. It's like a writers' block. I just can't come up with a topic.

But now I have something to talk about. Mainly, Chinese new year and a little bit of a life update.

So first things first, Chinese New year is right around the corner and I'm so excited yet not so excited at the same time. Reasons to be excited is because I get to visit my dad's hometown again and that is Johor! I get to see most of my relatives there. And also, I get to eat a lot. But it's a bummer that only my dad is able to visit KL this year because, my lil bro needs to study as in he doesn't get much days off cause he's in Brunei and my mom will be there too cause he needs to take care of things at home. That's the reason  why I'm not that excited for CNY this year. But that's okay I guess, I still can visit them sometime this year.

Speaking of CNY, I bought way too much clothes for this year and I have styled a couple of OOTDs and I can't wait to show you all my outfits. I just need to buy one more denim shorts and I'm good to go.

Now moving on,

(This is the part where I just spill my heart out and what I've been thinking about. So if you're not interested in reading about this, you can press exit. I won't mind and it's not like I'm gonna find out anyway XD )

Recently, I have been stressing a lot. Mainly about life.

Have you ever gotten to a point where you just don't know what you're doing with your life and what you want in life anymore? Like you feel lost and don't know what to do about it?

I'm basically at that point right now. I just kept stressing about what I want to pursue in life.

Each day I ask myself: "Do I really wanna go to college?" "what am I gonna do there?"

I do still wanna study Communications and maybe one day I wanna become a broadcaster or someone who can appear on the media. But most days I'm having second thoughts. 

And I know this is where I just need to stop doing everything and just chill out. I need to meditate. Cause all this "stressing about life" is bringing me down. And I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to stop stressing ~ I want my good vibes back!

So yes, I am done letting out most of my negative thinking. Thanks to this blog. I feel like maybe I should update more so that I don't bottle up my feelings and emotions inside my head.

I do hope you all have a wonderful day and stay happy! 

-I'll update soon-

xx

Hello everyone!
Something bad happened today and I guess I'll just jump right in to the details of what happened. Lol

So this morning I followed my brother to the car repair shop to get his car fixed. So I was driving/ following my brother's car at the back, telling myself that "I got this".. "It's just a near place", I was so chill until this happened. I managed to hit a lorry from the side while driving and break the entire left side-mirror. The rest of the car is fine.. and the lorry was fine (of course.. it's a lorry) and no one was hurt, just the side mirror was completely gone. I was so stunned at first and I didn't know what to do. I had that "oh shit..""fuck my life" moment, but I had to keep driving cause there were cars behind me. And I felt so shitty afterwards. And it's not just the accident that I have to think about constantly, now my brother  has to spend hundreds of dollars to fix the side mirror cause he know that I don't have the money to fix it myself. And it's all my fault. If I haven't been such a shitty driver, I would have save so much money and time for my brother. I felt so bad after that accident happened.

Later that morning, he told me to keep practicing and I'll eventually improve in my driving skills. That's what I'm gonna do from now on. I need to practice more even though I'd feel anxious and nervous and scared. I need to get through this so that I can go to places I want without using public transport anymore.

Right now, I still get that traumatic feeling from the accident, even though I'm just sitting here typing this blog post. Lol.. what happened this morning was a traumatic experience for me cause that was the first accident that happened to me while driving and I swear I never want to experience that again -touch wood-


So, enough about me for today. How's your day?


I'll update soon!

xx

Things I've Learnt in 2K14

Hello everyone!
I am back again with another update. This time, I'm gonna write (type) down all the things I've learnt this year. There are some good things and there are also some bad things which I will always remember as a life experience.


1) Never rely too much on others.

I know that a lot of people have known this from the start. I just thought that I knew better, but clearly, I don't. All this time I depended on people, nearly all of them has let me down. So at the end of the day, I'm the one who gets disappointed cause I expected too much from others. So I've learned my lesson.


2) Never try to take so much responsibility. You don't really have to do everything people ask you to.

I've seen a lot of people struggle with this sort of issue throughout the year. And I want to ask, why make your life more complicated than it already is? Why must people including me, have to say yes to everything others ask us to do? And why is it so hard for us to say no?

The truth is, you don't have to say yes to every favor people ask. Really, you don't. It's okay to say no. Real friends won't get butt-hurt about it. If you've got plenty of other things to do, why would you wanna say yes to another burden?

I guess we all do this just to make other happy eh? But I'm so fed up with it alright.


3) Not everyone who are nice to you, are your friends.

I know that we all deal with fake people on a daily basis. And I used to be that person who thinks that everyone is my friend. I'm sick and tired of people using others to get what they want, people who are ungrateful and unappreciative all the time and people who thinks that they're better than you and made you feel like shit. Clearly we don't deserve to be treated like shit.


4) Life is too short, so don't waste it

To think that I wasted so much time this year, really makes me feel like shit.
Yes, I did went to apply for college, but I turned up shitty than what I expected it to be. But I've decided to move past it.

So the truth is, I spent most of 2014 just simply staying at home and do nothing productive basically. All I did was just watch TV series all day and bore myself to death. I did went out friends to chill tho.

But I can't live like this. It takes me no where seriously. When I see most of my friends going to university and get part time jobs, and I'm just sitting here rotting, I felt like crap. So I had to do something with my life. I need to get my shit together (even tho I say this most of the time.... sigh..)



So that's it. There are so much more things that I learned this year but that's all of the things I could really think about.
I really hope that I don't make the same mistakes again next year, although I'm bound to make at least one of them.

I hope you all enjoyed your New Years Eve celebration.

For me, I'm just gonna stay at home and watch some movies, read a book, play games, greet some friends and then call it a night. That sounds like a plan.


I'll update soon :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

xx

Hey,

So today I went to take my driving exam (for the second time cause I failed the first time).
And it went really well... I was so nervous, I felt like shitting my pants and I felt nauseous the entire time. Thank God I didn't throw up...

I went to the registration office around 7:30am.... Yeah, I know it's early but the people who worked there told me I should be there before 7:30... And we didn't leave the office to head to the exam venue until it was almost 8am....Like what.. I had to wake up at 6am for nothing. And I only got 6 hours of sleep..Which made me sleepy the entire day.

So I waited for my turn to re-take the exam and at the same time I made some new friends. We were separated into different groups basically, Some came to re-take the Up-hill test, some only came for the 'driving on the actual road' test and some came as new exam candidates. We were placed under new candidates cause we failed both categories. So we just talked until it was my turn to do test. We basically did the actual road exam first cause there were too many. It was intense. I was so scared that I'd fail the test...but I passe anyway. Hooray!

And later on that day, I think it was around 1 to 2pm, we were called to do the up-hill exam. We basically had to drive the car up-hill and I no problem doing that. The first time when I took the exam, my car went back down the hill, so I failed. But this time, I passed.

I was so freaking happy after the exam was over cause those struggle had been paid off and the hours I've spent learning how to drive and enduring the driving instructor's yelling was worth it.

Right now, I don't have to worry about not having a driving license anymore cause I can finally drive!

So after the exam, I went home around 3pm and took a nap around 5pm and woke up around 7pm feeling so refreshed. And right now, I'm here typing this blog-post.

This basically sums up my entire day. I should celebrate, like go shopping and treat myself to a fancy meal or something... yeah.. I probably should do that.

Oh and and and..... It's finally December! which means Christmas and Comic Fiesta is right around the corner. I am so excited~

Anyways I don't want to blabber too much about December so I'll end the post right here.


Bye!

xx

50 Questions. About me

I saw this on tumblr so I decided to do the tag here on my blog because why not? So here it goes...

1.What are you wearing?
-> My lounge wear which is T-shirt and shorts cause I'm at home right now.

2: Ever been in love? 

-> Yes.

3: Ever had a terrible breakup? 

-> Yes.

4: How tall are you?

-> 159-160cm

5: How much do you weigh?

-> 45kg

6: Any tattoos? 

-> Nope, but i want one so bad :<

7: Any piercings?

Yep. 3 on both sides of my ear.

8: OTPs?

-> Basically.. Caroline and Enzo (The Vampire Diaries).  

9: Favorite shows?

-> American Horror Story, The Vampire Diaries, Orange is the New Black, Grimm, Supernatural, The Walking Dead, The Flash, Game of Thrones, Awkward

10: Favorite bands?

-> The 1975, Bring Me the Horizon, The Maine, You Me at Six, Paramore, A Day to Remember, Linkin Park.

11: Something you miss?

-> My phone...It broke....

12: Favorite Song?

-> Chocolate by The 1975

13: How old are you?

 -> 19

14: Zodiac sign?

-> Leo

15: Qualities you look for in a partner? 

-> Sense of humor, kindness, someone who'd open the door/hold the door for me, someone who's patient with me when I have one of those 'crappy' moments, guys who'd accept me for who I am despite me being a shitty person, guys who can cook

16: Favorite quote?

-> 'I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not' - Kurt Cobain

17: Favorite actor? 

-> For now, it's Dave Franco :D

18: Favorite color? 

-> Black, red, lavender, pastel colors

19: Loud music or soft? 

-> Anything will do, as long as I like them 

20: Where do you go when you’re sad? 

-> To my room, so I can cry.

21: How long does it take for you to shower?

-> 15 minutes for days where I don't want to wash my hair and 30 - 45 minutes for days I just want to relax in the shower.

22: How long does it take for you to get ready in the morning?

-> It depends.If i'm in a rush, I'll probably take 10-15 minutes to get ready. But when I have all the time in the world, I'll take up to 2 hours to get ready..lol 

23: Ever been in a physical fight?

-> Nope.

24: Turn ons? 

-> Tattoos, sense of humor

25: Turn offs? 

-> guys who talks like a pervert all all the time, 

26: The reason I joined Tumblr? 

-> Because I was curious of what Tumblr was like....

27: Your biggest fear? 

-> Falling down from a tall building without anything attached to my body.

28: Last thing that made you cry? 

-> I failed my driving exam :/

29: Last time you said you loved someone? 

-> 4 years ago..lol

30: Meaning behind your Tumblr name? 

-> Back when I first made a tumblr account, I really liked zombies..so that's where it started off 

31: Last book you read?

-> The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

32: The book you’re currently reading?

-> The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien

33: Last show you watched? 

-> Z Nation

34: Last person you talked to?

-> My nephew

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?

-> Friends

36: Favorite snack?

-> Flammin' Hot Cheetos 

37: Places you want to visit?

-> Thailand, Japan, Korea, China, US, UK, France..Basically all over the world.

38: Last place you were?

-> Times Square

39: Do you have a crush?

-> Yes.

40: Last time you kissed someone?

-> 4 months ago.

41: Last time you were insulted? 

-> I don't remember

42: Favorite flavor of candy? 

->  Hmmm..... mango, peach, apple

43: What instruments do you play?

-> Acoustic guitar.

44: Favorite piece of jewelry?

-> Necklaces

45: Last sport you played?

-> I don't play sports

46: Last song you sang?

-> She Looks so Perfect by 5 seconds of Summer......yep......

47: Favorite chat up line?

-> Hey..

48: Have you ever used it?

-> Used what?

49: Last time you hung out with someone?

-> Yesterday.

50: Who should answers these questions next?

-> Anyone and everyone.