Messy mind.

Hello everyone,

I am back again with another blog-post. I've been procrastinating on updating this blog since forever. I don't know, it's like I want to update but I have no idea what to blog about. It's like a writers' block. I just can't come up with a topic.

But now I have something to talk about. Mainly, Chinese new year and a little bit of a life update.

So first things first, Chinese New year is right around the corner and I'm so excited yet not so excited at the same time. Reasons to be excited is because I get to visit my dad's hometown again and that is Johor! I get to see most of my relatives there. And also, I get to eat a lot. But it's a bummer that only my dad is able to visit KL this year because, my lil bro needs to study as in he doesn't get much days off cause he's in Brunei and my mom will be there too cause he needs to take care of things at home. That's the reason  why I'm not that excited for CNY this year. But that's okay I guess, I still can visit them sometime this year.

Speaking of CNY, I bought way too much clothes for this year and I have styled a couple of OOTDs and I can't wait to show you all my outfits. I just need to buy one more denim shorts and I'm good to go.

Now moving on,

(This is the part where I just spill my heart out and what I've been thinking about. So if you're not interested in reading about this, you can press exit. I won't mind and it's not like I'm gonna find out anyway XD )

Recently, I have been stressing a lot. Mainly about life.

Have you ever gotten to a point where you just don't know what you're doing with your life and what you want in life anymore? Like you feel lost and don't know what to do about it?

I'm basically at that point right now. I just kept stressing about what I want to pursue in life.

Each day I ask myself: "Do I really wanna go to college?" "what am I gonna do there?"

I do still wanna study Communications and maybe one day I wanna become a broadcaster or someone who can appear on the media. But most days I'm having second thoughts. 

And I know this is where I just need to stop doing everything and just chill out. I need to meditate. Cause all this "stressing about life" is bringing me down. And I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to stop stressing ~ I want my good vibes back!

So yes, I am done letting out most of my negative thinking. Thanks to this blog. I feel like maybe I should update more so that I don't bottle up my feelings and emotions inside my head.

I do hope you all have a wonderful day and stay happy! 

-I'll update soon-

xx